via Birds

Finding hope

She once said

Life was bitter sweet

Like the first time  one ever loved

And that love ended too soon.

That’s all I could think of

As I watched the ventilator pushing air into her lungs,

Dry blood around her lips like crushed petals. Het trademark,

The beautiful lilac birthmark

That sat high up on her cheek

Disappeared into her paleness.

All I could do was imagine her

Waking up,

Her beautiful

Blue crystal eyes

Meeting mine,

And my heart saying,

I am so glad you are here.

Stay with me a little longer.

It isn’t time for you to go.

I am not ready to let you go.

But her  eyes remained shut

And she

slipped away

Before I could be by her side. The machines that kept her alive would suddenly be silent.

And it was bitter sweet


To have loved her

And lost her,

To find the strength to remember

how she  believed in hope and finding hope

By thinking of the most beautiful things.

By j. Hamilton








It felt like spring today

With the melting snow in my herb garden,

Uncovering fragrant mint leaves

And parsley.

The red limbs of my dogwood

Dripped in rain

And underneath them;

Where my children once played

-Under tangled leaves

Was a tunnel

For wintering animals:

And around it,


By j. Hamilton